Today is the one-year anniversary of the Staten Island ferry crash.
At the time I had been working at my newspaper for six weeks, and was still working at night. So when I was dressing, and watched the crash happening on telvision, I had no gauge on how much of my life it would affect. I knew I was watching my job unfold in front of my eyes, but surely for something this important the more respected, better-known, more proven reporters at our paper would be taking the bulk of the work.
On the way into the office my editor in chief called me - proving just by that fact that the newsroom was in utter chaos. He told me to go straight to one of the hospitals to await victims, to get victim reports.
I got sent to Staten Island University Hospital in Ocean Breeze, where most of the most injured patients were treated. At first I was the only one there and almost made it inside the emergency room before a security guard wised up and escorted me to the front. I didn't know what to do. Why wasn't any other press there?
My question was soon answered; two reporters and a broadcaster were interviewing someone on the sidewalk, someone with the dust of the Andrew J. Barberi ferryboat still clinging to his jacket. I ran. I got that story, and met my colleagues for the night - the Daily News, Newsday, the New York Post, the New York Times, and me, six-week baby reporter from Staten Island. I tried not to look too intimidated.
Victims streamed in but we were made to wait on the sidewalk. We shivered. We talked to who we could. Someone brought us coffee. We talked shop. We didn't quite feel what was happening, because we weren't supposed to.
After five hours we were called to the emergency room doors, where there was to be a press conference with doctors. Victims still were streaming out of the doors. After the press conference most of the press...left. Just left. And it was me and a guy from CBS, hanging outside the doors of the hospital.
I had been wrangling with our friend from the hospital to get me something all night. Anything, a victim, anything exclusive. It didn't feel carnivorous at the time; we just wanted a good story. After I stood outside for a while - there was no real reason for me to stay but it just didn't feel like I should go - the security guard who had been evil to me all night walked up to me. He said, as if he were Deepthroat, "Go to the lobby. Something you'll like's in the lobby."
I nodded and ran around the campus to the front. Our hospital friend took me by the arm and walked me into the emergency room.
I was expecting worse carnage than I saw. Some victims were still bloody but the waters had calmed; the most extreme patients had been put into rooms, but I did go into a trauma room to speak with a few more. They were in disbelief, staring straight ahead of them. Henry Bennudriti was smiling, clearly exuberant to be alive at all.
I was escorted out. I still stayed at the hospital. I didn't feel I was done. I figured out the code for the emergency room doors and went back in. I talked to an attendant, who still looked sickened. I think to this day he's the only hospital personnel (minus the litany of specialist that had press conferences) that spoke freely about the crash.
I left. I was at the paper all night long. The names of the dead came in at 6 a.m. We started calling their families.
The next day was supposed to be my day off. No way. There was a press conference at my hospital, and I went. There was Paul Esposito's family, begging the woman who saved Paul's life to come forward so they could thank her. This would become the centerpiece of most ferry coverage for every news organization. The hopeful and optimistic Esposito and his British angel, heroics onboard the boat and a tearful, joyous reunion. I didn't cry about any of it until I listened to Kerry Griffiths, the nurse who saved Paul, tell the story.
This week has been very hard. Talking to people, reliving all of it, listening to them break down - not easy. Of course, it's much, much, much worse for them and I'm starting, just now, to truly understand what they all went through. I hooked back up with Henry Bennudriti and spent this week poring over his story, his terrible, horrible, heartbreaking story. And of course I spoke with Paul, who I've interviewed at least 20 times over the year, about his unending optimism. No legs, and he is probably even happier than he was before the crash.
I and another reporter worked our tails off all this week, and we're truly proud of the coverage our paper put out today on this anniversary. So, here it is if you want to see it. A special section, on the occasion of the anniversary of the day that I can say for certain changed my life.
(PDF files, all over 1MB)
Ferry Section page 1 (A7)
Ferry Section pages 2 and 3 (A8 and A9)
Ferry Section page 4 (A10)